I'm sorry...
Am I too stupid to accept it? Or to tell myself that it’s over? He’s been telling me this several times before… in my dreams… but then why can’t I accept this? Why can’t I let go when everything is obvious? That he… just doesn’t care anymore?
I’ve fallen so many times. No one caught me. I’ve stood up too many times also… but someone keeps on letting me fall. But. Unfortunately, I end up too tired to stand up, and too tired to catch anyone who falls… into me. Am I too self driven that I’m oblivious to the hands that are ready to catch me? Am I too self-centered, that I don’t care about other people’s feelings? Am I driven also, by my pride? To accept that I have fallen for you? So… that’s why I’m feeling so bereft and for now… I’m telling you. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for failing you.
I’m sorry for not reciprocating the love you have given me.
I’m sorry for making you too tired…
I’m sorry for letting you gaze into my eyes and seeing nothing but orbs…
Where you cannot see yourself in it.
I’m sorry for telling you how much HE meant to me…
I’m sorry for making you cry.
I’m sorry for letting you fall more and more… that I couldn’t help you get up…
Or that… I couldn’t fall with you.
I’m sorry for telling you how insignificant you are to me.
I’m sorry for making excuses and letting myself believe in so many signs… that ended up… me…having a broken heart.
I’m sorry for making you so… unhappy.
I’m sorry that you have to go away and fall into someone…that is ready to catch you…and now that I AM ready to catch or fall with you.
I’m sorry for realizing too much…but too late.
I’m sorry that I love you… but you loved me.
I’m sorry… but I will forget you.
If you can see this… I don’t care anymore. But at least I have proven in such a little way in which you have shaped me to who I am now. I’m much stronger. And much more aware. Remember the vow? I’ll gladly to that. And if that time comes and I’ll be forced to choose between him or you (if ever you come back – but I’m not hoping.). I’ll choose? Him. Cause once I get over you… you’ll never wish I didn’t…
Haha. ^_^; I’m not threatening you or anything. But you know me. Once I forget you, or I’m over the person… I will never ever feel any regrets, ‘what if’s’ and such anymore… because I’ve already done that so why do it again when I’m a new person? Thanks to you.
I’m sorry for the people I fail to let in the book of my life. I have failed you. But if you give me a second chance I won’t. But if you don’t… I’m o.k. with that. Then that’s none of my business anymore.
- I’ve already fallen in love several times, but then I never got into a relationship. -
I’ve fallen so many times. No one caught me. I’ve stood up too many times also… but someone keeps on letting me fall. But. Unfortunately, I end up too tired to stand up, and too tired to catch anyone who falls… into me. Am I too self driven that I’m oblivious to the hands that are ready to catch me? Am I too self-centered, that I don’t care about other people’s feelings? Am I driven also, by my pride? To accept that I have fallen for you? So… that’s why I’m feeling so bereft and for now… I’m telling you. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for failing you.
I’m sorry for not reciprocating the love you have given me.
I’m sorry for making you too tired…
I’m sorry for letting you gaze into my eyes and seeing nothing but orbs…
Where you cannot see yourself in it.
I’m sorry for telling you how much HE meant to me…
I’m sorry for making you cry.
I’m sorry for letting you fall more and more… that I couldn’t help you get up…
Or that… I couldn’t fall with you.
I’m sorry for telling you how insignificant you are to me.
I’m sorry for making excuses and letting myself believe in so many signs… that ended up… me…having a broken heart.
I’m sorry for making you so… unhappy.
I’m sorry that you have to go away and fall into someone…that is ready to catch you…and now that I AM ready to catch or fall with you.
I’m sorry for realizing too much…but too late.
I’m sorry that I love you… but you loved me.
I’m sorry… but I will forget you.
If you can see this… I don’t care anymore. But at least I have proven in such a little way in which you have shaped me to who I am now. I’m much stronger. And much more aware. Remember the vow? I’ll gladly to that. And if that time comes and I’ll be forced to choose between him or you (if ever you come back – but I’m not hoping.). I’ll choose? Him. Cause once I get over you… you’ll never wish I didn’t…
Haha. ^_^; I’m not threatening you or anything. But you know me. Once I forget you, or I’m over the person… I will never ever feel any regrets, ‘what if’s’ and such anymore… because I’ve already done that so why do it again when I’m a new person? Thanks to you.
I’m sorry for the people I fail to let in the book of my life. I have failed you. But if you give me a second chance I won’t. But if you don’t… I’m o.k. with that. Then that’s none of my business anymore.
- I’ve already fallen in love several times, but then I never got into a relationship. -
posted by Niza at 2:30 PM
1 Comments:
no problem ab0t it, at least i cud share my odd "luvs2ry" w/ sam1 else except from my bestfrend & niece (niece pero mas matanda sya skin..heheh (pamangkin ko sa pinsan)..I find it hrd na magkwento sa ibang frends ko kc i dnt know perhaps dey cud not undrstand me..bka pagtwanan ako...ewan lng...anywayz yup i'm w/ him again, pero as usual confusing, samtyms he's around, minsan nman wla..bsta magulo...but i knw dt im ready to face wt lies ahead, im being hopeful most of the times dt our bizzare relationship cud work out, but u knw its hrd to be positive at all times...bahala na system..bka one of these days matauhan din ako! hehehe..by d way from wat skul u? keep on blogging! hope 2 hear frm u soon! God speed! :)
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